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Kalau cerita, mesti orang tak nak percaya. Dulu, sebelum mengalami kejadian macam ni pun aku tak percaya. Masa kat sekolah ramai-ramai kena hysteria pun aku tak caya… aku rasa mcm diorang tu fake things up sbb mls nak dgr cikgu ngajar. Lagipun, kenapa benda tu tak jadi bila aku ada kat situ? Not even to any of my classmate dari Darjah 1 sampai la habis Form 5. yang kena sume class lain.
Pada sesiapa yang tak percaya dengan perbuatan sihir ni… hati-hatilah. Sbb kita tak tau capability seseorang tu. Kadang-kadang manusia yang berkawan dgn syaitan ni, nampak baik sangat… Wallahua’lam la.. tu antara dia dengan Allah S.W.T. There’s someone I once knew so dearly, boleh dikatakan ada hubungan keluarga. Solat 5 waktu mmg tak tinggal, on time sentiasa. Mengaji memang merdu, he used to teach the neighborhood kids mengaji Al-Quran. That was before the whole neighborhood pulaukan family dia (I heard). Tapi, memang orang yang berpengalaman dlm perubatan alternative pernah bagitau, biasanya orang yang nak berkawan dgn syaitan ni, dia biasanya tak boleh tinggalkan ibadah solat, mungkin sbg pendinding diri sendiri Wallahua’lam…
Zaman sekarang ni memang moden, high tech, canggih, tapi manusia skrg mcm dah balik kepada method asal zaman jahiliah atau zaman purbakala dulu. Tengok sajalah kes-kes pukau untuk menyamun mangsa. Dah berapa banyak kes yang kita tengok di tv atau baca di akhbar. Kalau membunuh guna pistol atau senjata lain boleh dikesan oleh ‘CSI’, tp membunuh org menggunakan sihir, tiada bukti ataupun klausa dlm undang-undang yang boleh menyabitkan. Pembunuh ni ingat dia boleh terlepas, di dunia mmg terlepas… di akhirat nanti… Wallahua’lam….
Bulan lepas, a distant cousin of mine baru sahaja meninggal dunia. Sebelum tu dia habiskan masa 2 minggu terlantar di hospital tempat dia bekerja sbg seorang jururawat. Selama 2 minggu tu la mcm-mcm ujian doctor jalankan ke atas dia. Tiada sebarang penyakit pun yg doctor berjaya kesan. Not even dengue fever… sampai the last resort, doctor mintak kebenaran dia untuk buat lumbar puncture atau org melayu panggil amik air tulang belakang untuk kesan sebarang penyakit saraf, walaupun doctor tau dia takde sebrg tanda org yg ada penyakit saraf. Sepanjang berada kat hospital, arwah tak boleh makan, minum, cakap pun dua tiga patah perkataan shj, berjalan pun nak dipapah. Keadaan teruk mcm ni pun takde penyakit simple yang boleh dikesan tanpa lumbar puncture?
My uncle whom was dead almost 4 years ago, he was diagnosed with liver cancer la, lung cancer la. Tp lepas chemotherapy, doctor mintak maaf la pulak because it was a faulty decision. Sebenarnya arwah takde pun cancer-cancer tu. Tp dia batuk-batuk gak. Sakit dlm perut… those king of thing… benda kecik-kecik yang kita selalu overlook, yang kadang-kadang doctor bagi tau kita “you’re fine. Nothing to be worried”.
My sister, masih belum dikurniakan anak setelah hampir enam tahun berkahwin. Cyst removal operation dah buat, hormone treatment dah buat, doctor pun kata she supposedly should able to conceive a baby, tp takde… but Alhamdulillah, rezeki tu Allah bg dlm apa bentuk pun, dia dpt gak ambil anak angkat yang kami sekeluarga sayang mcm darah daging kami sendiri…
My mom, since I was pregnant with Darwish, smp la Darwish was 1 year old, she had this terrible cough. Mcm-mcm ubat batuk la dah cuba
Anyway, kengkawan… kalau ada symptom batuk yang tak baik-baik, atau penyakit pelik yg doctor kata takde apa, in some cases org yg kena buatan org ni dari sihat or low blood pressure leh jadi darah tinggi, jd sebelum start mkn ubat darah tinggi tu baik cr alternative lain, bila badan tu rasa malas je, taknak jumpa orang or socialize adala tu benda yg beratkan badan tu… bagi yg berumah tangga, kalau tak semena-mena rasa benci bila tgk muka pasangan, nak marah tak pasal-pasal, tiba-tiba perangai berubah jd lain drp biasa, don’t jeopardize your marriage… kdg-kdg pihak ketiga ni, kalau dia tak dpt suami atau isteri kita cara biasa dia guna cara lain… tak salah kalau kita berhati-hati, tp kalau boleh, carilah pengamal perubatan alternative yang menggunakan ayat-ayat Allah utk mengubat. Jgn jumpa yg berkawan dgn syaitan gak, nanti lain yg jadi… InsyaAllah, kalau kita kuat semangat, benda-benda tu takkan dpt ganggu kita, tp biasanya yang kuat semangat ni org yg keras hati atau degil sikit (macam saya kot.. hehe). Sbg pendinding kita, amalkan la ayat-ayat manzil, kalau rasa lain mcm tu. Yang penting kita alert dgn diri sendiri… Wallahua’lam…
| H | Helpful |
| A | Amorous |
| Z | Zany |
| I | Important |
| L | Luxurious |
| A | Astonishing |
Darwish just turned 1 year on 2nd March 2007. Cepatnya masa berlalu... Soon he'll go to school, go to college, have a good carrier, meet some girl, get married and leave me... sigh...
Should we have another one dear? Hmmm...
That week memang busy sangat at work. Masa tu memang dah malas gila la nak pegi keje… imagine carrying extra 17kg to your actual weigh with swollen feet… tak leh nak angkat kaki ni… dah la opis 3 stories. At work I already calculated that I might be in labour on 2nd March.. time malas2 wat keje gitu… That time all the subcon was chasing their payments sebab takut tak sempat dah meletup lak… Funny thing was this one subcon, he even bribed me with RM100.00 just to get his payment done before someone else’s. I took it as a gift and later use it to isi duit minyak balik Muar. That night 27th February I started having mild contraction. Tetiba teringat kat mamat yg kasik duit ni… sempat ke tak nak submit payment dia…lantaklah.
Next morning 28th February I can’t go to work, or don’t want to go I’m not sure which one (hihi) and Zul took me to see the obstetrician, the contraction was still there but the cervix opening was only 1cm… still a long way to go. I got 2 days M.C and spent the day surfing the net until I realize that the pain has gone that night. I felt a disappointment and hoping that the pain would come back so I get to stay at home longer. Besoknya 1st March M.C lagi, that time instinct tu kuat sangat nak kemas rumah. So I swept and mopped the floor, clean the kitchen, and fold the clean laundry, semua la despite of the pain swollen feet. Malam tu rasa frust sgt dah keje berat pun the contraction hasn’t come back… cam psycho plak eh… so sebelum tido tu tukar posisi tempat tido ngan Zul so I get to be nearer with the toilet. Penat la every time jalan jauh2 nak kencing mlm2. so that night I went to sleep dengan plan esok nak ambik M.C. lagi la… malas nak keje.
A few hours after that (3.15am 2nd March) terjaga dari tido, cam terperanjat. Rasa pelik la… dah lama tak rasa cam ni… was I menstruating? Oh no… the water broke!!! I ran to the toilet (sib baik dah tukar tempat, dekat sikit) and wondering, why haven’t I felt the pain yet? Kejut Zul, dia cam excited sebab dah since a few weeks before that everytime kejut dia tengah malam dia gelabah ingat dah nak bersalin. Malam tu baru real. So I called my mom, mintak ampun kat mak n ayah suruh diorg doakan mudah bersalin… dia suruh cepat2 gi hospital. Tapi sebab tak rasa sakit tu I took the time to brush teeth, shower and have my last subuh prayer before 1 month off. Zul lagi best siap sempat Solat Hajat so that I could give birth easily… so sweet kan? Sementara Zul tgh solat tu minum la air selusuh n air bunga Siti Fatimah yg Mak Uda n Mak Long kasik… Tima kasih…
Dalam kerete tak ingat berapa kali mintak ampun kat Zul… rasa cam nak pegi mati je.. Sampai hospital pukul 5.30am. diorg terus wat check up.. that time terperanjat sgt sebab the cervix opening was 5cm! tak sangka lak… mungkin berkat manual labour the previous morning… masa tu tak sakit lagi tapi my blood pressure tinggi, then they checked me in a room. Masa tu skali lagi call mak mintak ampun… takut la.. org cakap macam2 pasal orang yang susah beranak ni… mak n ayah sampai hospital at approximately 6.30am. a while after that nurse kata nak kasik drip so that cervix lagi cepat bukak… masa tu cam eksen lagik la… belum rasa sakit. Half an hour after masuk drip tu I started to feel a brutal pain… contraction makin kerap. Sakitnya hanya org yg dah bersalin normal dan Allah je yang tahu. Sakit sunat org lelaki tu hapa sangat la…ciput… sekali lagi nurse run a blood pressure test… the pressure was getting higher. Peliknya during monthly checkup my blood pressure is either normal or low. They asked me if I am afraid, I am not sure if I am afraid or anxious to meet my baby… they told me they might do caesarean section if the blood pressure stays high. Nasib baik after dua bijik pill tekanan darah turun sikit, boleh la normal birth.
At 9.00am I went in the labour room. Once again they checked my blood pressure and the cervix opening has reached 9cm… Alhamdulillah, but the pain has now become more unbearable. After a while doctor said dah boleh teran. Zul was there witnessing the birth of his first child, I felt so lucky to have a husband who is not afraid of blood. He has been very supportive and sometimes annoying sebab kept telling me to push correctly. How would he know that I’m doing it the wrong way? In fact it was my first time doing THAT! Tapi, takpe… he has been so sweet masa tu. I still remember the look on his face when he saw the baby’s hair sticking out from well, ‘there’. He kept cheering me up. I thought he look like a group of cheer leader together with the nurse, midwife and the doctor hihi… finally at 10.09am (berkat minum air selusuh 1 tong kot, 1 hour je dalam labour room) the baby came out with a bit help from the doctor who after that put the baby on my belly for a first glimpse (Darwish cry the moment he went through ‘that’ area, the doctor never have to smack his little but up). That instant the pain had gone away, seeing the baby crying for the first time was heaven, I can’t wait to hold him for the first time. After they stitched me up, I was sent back to my room waiting to see the baby. Less than an hour after that Zul come in with the baby. I’ve always thought of becoming a mommy in my life, but this time I am a mommy to a baby we named Darwish. He’s now 5 months old and has become the most precious in our lives. Mommy & Daddy loves you!!
Last Saturday i woke up early and went to work (On Saturday???!! who does that??) and i saw a very colourful, huge and clear colored rainbow...
i suddenly realize that in my lifetime not even every year i get to see a rainbow appear after rain... or anywhere... (except of course, in photos or national geographic channel) maybe less than 20 times... wow..
Right now.. all I am feeling is scared.. and excited.. both at the same time. Can't wait to meet someone... Pray for me...
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